| Location | Manchester |
| Age | 34 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 20/12/1974 |
| Date of Death | 06/01/2009 |
| Visitors | 1,727 since 23/03/2009 |
| Creator |
my brother was 34 when he took his own life. he was stuggling to cope and couldnt see a way out. i loved him very much, and miss him terribly. i new he was having a hard time, and did try to help him. the will to save a life, is not the power to stop a death. his very close family, myself, mum sister and brother are hurting so much. nieces nephews alike. he leaves four children which he loved deeply. my bro was always there for me when i needed him, i wish he would of let me in. i keep expecting him to come round to my house"yo sis, u doin a brew". i would do anything to have him back, to turn back the clock. how do we just carry on without him?. i love you col, you will always be in my heart. i will see you on the other side. you will be forever young...and beautifull. your big sis joanne. xxxxxxxx
yo bro. iv got 2tell u col..... our family has fallen apart! im scared. i feel so alone. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Col, I don't know what to say. I am doing this because I can't say the words to any one. I am two people now. One who goes to work, does the ordinary things in life. The person that everyone thinks is coping ok. The other person is hidden deep inside me. I darn't let her out. If I let her out I will never recover.If I let her out I will never go to work again, never go to the shops, never speak to anyone ever again. I am so scared Col. I know you don't want me to tell you all this. You always used to say,like Stu does now, "Oh Mum I don't know what to do- tell Jo and Gina", I can't tell anyone Col because once I start I will never stop.Help me this once Col. I am so scared, I don't think I can go on much longer. It is just getting worse every day.I am pushing her to the back of my mind,to the back of my head. I am scared of looking at Stu or Jo or Gina because they are part of you, I can't even look at photos of them or you and I know I am getting ready to break any minute now. I need help Col. I need help.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from your lil bro and our clan x
hiya it claire xx just writing coz want u to know how much stu boo misses ya x im trying to look after stu and your mum for you and will do the best i can xxxxx can you give stu sum strength pls coz he wont say it ( coz he a man lol) just like u! xxx also if u can give your mum and joanne and gina sum strength too!!! they all miss u so much as well as me and joshi and adsxxxxxxxx hope u happy where u r! xxx ps look after uncle ee for us till we all meet again and dont give them angels too much grief!!!lol xxxxxxxxxxxxx
from mum xxxx
Twelve months today I kissed you goodbye for the very last time. How I wish I could still feel that kiss. I CAN still feel the hug you gave me. Did you know that it was to be the last time we met?? They say that time heals, it's just not true. We just find a way of coping with the hole in our lives. a+f son a+f xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Colin is my first son, he hung himself at the begining of the year. I knew that he would. I felt his pain every day..it's what mum's do. I would give up my life today if I could spend just one more minute with him xxxxxxxxxxxxx a+f col xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LIKE A COMET,,,,,,BLAZING CROSS THE EVENING SKY,
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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LIKE A RAINBOW,FADING IN THE COMING NIGHT,
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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SHINING,SPARKLING,AND SPLENDIDLY BRIGHT.
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HERE ONE DAY.,,.GONE ONE NIGHT.
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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LIKE A CLOTH OF SUNLIGHT ON A CLOUDY AFTERNOON.
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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LIKE A CASTLE BUILT UPON A SANDY BEACH.
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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LIKE A PERFECT LOVELY FLOWER, THAT IS
JUST BEYOND YOU"RE REACH.
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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BORN TO LIVE IN SHEER DELIGHT,
HERE ONE DAY,GONE BY NIGHT.
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GONE TOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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LIKE A SUNSET DAZZLED BY THE RISING MOON.
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GONE TOO SOON.
[A MICHAEL JACKSONG SONG].R.I.P..
R.I.P.ANGEL.XXXX
♥ You are invited to Joe Benyon’s/Dante’s Heavenly
Birthday Party on Thursday 4 June 2009 ♥
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♥ This is Joe’s first birthday in heaven and I am sure he will be throwing the best party that heaven has seen. Please join him there, I am sure you are all good friends by now ♥
your letter. xxx
i got a copy ov ur letter bro. it has set me back abit. mum got a copy ov hers 2. u didnt take the easy way out col, u were sooo brave 2do wat u did. i wish i new wat had happened in those last 2nites that tipped u over the edge. its ur inquest 09th july then it will all b over bro. we are all going, all ur family. i love u and will always love u always. miss u sooooo much. hope ur watching over us. your sis. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
A shadow of joy flickered; it is me.
I told you I wouldn't leave..
My spirit is with you.
My memories, my thoughts are imbedded deep in your heart.
I still love you.
Do not for one moment think that you have been abandoned.
I am in the Light.
In the corner, in the hall, the car, the yard --
these are the places I stay with you.
My spirit rises every time you pray for me,
but my energy comes closer to you.
Love does not diminish, it grows stronger.
I am the feather that finds you in the yard,
the dimmed light that grows brighter in your mind,
I place our memories for you to see.
We lived in our special way,
a way that now has its focus changed.
I still crave your understanding and
long for the many words of prayer and good fortune for my soul.
I am in the Light.
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